Just Breathe!

First off I need to say if this offends anyone I am sorry...........Now for a brief history to explain. 

Feb 17, 2004 I had a hysterectomy.  It was due to severe Cervical dysplasia, I had several things done,  

LEEP--Loop Electrosurgical Excision Procedure that lead me to having

CONE BIOPSY which showed that is kept going through my layers.

After all these tests and nothing coming back in a happy positive way I was left with a hard choice, keep having Leeps done or just to have things removed.  I decided to have a hysterectomy.  I lost one of my ovaries also due to uncontrolable bleeding. I am not trying to have a sad post so on to the better part of this post.  So for the last 6 years I have had the priviledge yes I will call it that PRIVILEDGE of not having my monthly "gift".  But now I only daughter has now RUINED my inner glee!  Yes I am calling her out and letting everyone know!  (my mom did to me so I am passing it on to her).  SO this weekend my daughter told me that she would be needing some PADS!  WHAT NO PLEASE DON'T MAKE ME! So there I am in the store in an isle that I have not been in for what seems FOREVER!  I felt so out of place, I had no idea what to get!  I was having a panic attack.  I think I picked up 10 different kinds reading them looking and comparing them and still had no clue what to get.  Come on Shana this can't be that hard you used to do this all the time.  But it reminded me of Dude, when he came home from his mission he said his friends took him to the grocercy store and he just stood in awe of it.  (He served in Bolivia)  That was just 2 years away, so my 6 year hiatus grants me this panic and awe.  So any way these are what I got and I hope she is ok with them I am sure if she isn't she will for sure let me know!